I haven't been updating for a month already (What’s new to be honest? Me and consistency has been beefing for years).
Things have been hectic at work since after raya until early June for me. I barely had room to breathe because the workload was something else. But now it’s way too slow that it’s killing my motivation pulak. Haha. Why la my workload only at 2 extreme ends and never had a nominal.
Up and down at work also extend to my up and down in my more important pursuit. My heart is not exactly in the best state after Ramadhan and I am still struggling to get my effort in my pursuit to be at least at the level when I was preparing for Ramadhan.
My strategy is easy, to get back to listening to a lot of lessons as the first step because that was what I did before and it works. But I got a hurdle now, I succumbed to the temptations of entertainment. Thanks but no thanks to my 1-year iQiyi subscription. Ya Allah, give me the strength to tepis all of these godaan.
Oh ya, have to put this here as well. I’m officially 30! Alhamdulillah. My birthday was on 20th June btw, so a week has passed. I was planning to write about me turning 30 here but procrastination and laziness go so well with me, they fit like a glove (ugh) that I ended up not doing it.
30, is the decade that I waited for. Turning 30 might sound overwhelming but as much as it does that, it brings excitement to me as well. I am excited to be the better grounded version of myself. And I want to get as many knowledge and do as many ibadah as I can. Supaya nanti, when I turn 40 pulak, I will have the ground to work on more on myself. Continuous improvement, insyaAllah. May Allah permit us to live a fulfilling life full of goodness.
30 is the age that I want to start to let go. Let go of my obsession with worldly stuff and whatever is in it. I don’t want to be affected by other people judgment and expectation as much as I did before. And I want to be contented with what I have and not look at what other people have with jealousy or envy. Ya Allah, hold my heart and let is see all the You have already bestowed upon me with eyes and heart of gratitude.
I will end this super random, everywhere and nothing structured update with, see you next time, dear blog!
